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Try sleeping with a broken heart

who am i kidding?
O'vl is getting closer and i'm playing with fire.
Well i have to stop before i get burn but ironically,
both ways i still get burn.
if i stop ,my heart will be burning if i don't my future will turn to ashes.
i didn't ask to fall for him but i just did.
Parents wants me to Be better then the rest of my siblings.its very typical of them.
everyone knew i am a strong girl but who knows i could get knock in my knees as well?
Friends on the other hand,i just realized they took me for granted.
they get benefits from me because i loved them..but i had enough.
siblings pulak.. surprisingly they are the closest by blood but they know nothing of me.
a few days back i confined myself in my room crying.
at this point who really thinks i'm crying about relationship wreck ?
haha nice try..contact me then..cause you got lot to learn about me..*if you want to ofcourse..
Well i basically Damn Freaking angry at someone that i swear i wanted to kill her..therefore i cry cause my body was trembling with anger..she was like so closed.i could sense her near me,hear her but i couldn't touch her..all i wanted is to Stab her.
I hold it back and cried.i threw everything off my bed,punch the wall and blast the room with music.
I wished she regretted having me,i wished he regretted making love,I regretted going into the ovum.

Fuck it

Hello bloggers!!
well obvious that i got something on my head isn't it?
because here is where i go to shout it out..

My thumb is feeling better!!!
for those who don't know..
my thumb met a cute accident while locking Farid n Farihin inside the class
that faggot-farid freaked out and kicked the door and my thumb went in between the doors
ans snap!! my thumb blurted out blood..
and worst still doc says my vein burst due to pressure..ewwwww right??
Sadly i cried when shida said "irah your vein!! your vein!!"
i mean come on..don't grossed me out!!

haha then finally .. a week later shida injured!!
she fell..her leg was injured.. karma baby!! lol
no offence baby..but i just love the fact you fell.. now we are equal..
she aided me and vice versa.

then i found out..some bitch who i respected alot..seems to be a mother fucker behind me..
shida you know who..
i still Can't believe sia!! kanina!!
what the hell i do wrong to her? is she like fucking deprived for friendship?

when i think about it..i realised how many flings i had..
i didn't even realised.. i am no better then A*******
damn it sia..
But now there's this guy who caught my attention since the first time we met..
ironically i hated him for the past few months before i knew him..
i know thats not good,judgjing a book by its cover..
but hey.. look..give a chance and you never know.. you guys can click..
but ofcourse i'm refring to freindship..Relationship comes afterwards..

one thing i hate is that.. i take things for granted..
i know this value
"one only realised how important that someone is only when they left"
its true..
sometimes i felt tears in my eyes when i think or looked at certain friends of mine who graduate or met an acciddent for example..
time flies past and you can't even stop it.. like wth..

and i reaally Hate Nazrul..
he really needs me to fix his teeth just so he could close his mouth i guess =.=

Belly dancer Ft Native American =)

Well Today was Cca Fair!
basically what we have to do is to fish as many sec one to join drama=)
the bonus is -we have to Dress as someone..
shida became the Native American princess
while
i became the belly dancer..

well by nature i'm more rough on the outside(the imprudent one)
while shida seems to be
is the softer one plus she an expertise in belly dancing..
therefore its obvious this is such a screw up moment..

we walk around barefooted,smile and wave,
and when i got their attention i come up and talk =D

Sec ones are sooo cute..

well per normal we camwhored alot plus we made this video in Fb
check it out..
to us its hilarious though..
thats us..these few People in Drama club
whom you people call weirdo,jerks,bitches
Are US..

well its weird when you think you know someone but you don't
even though you know that person quite well or long enough to expect them to know you better

instead of misjudging and misunderstood you.

i prosper,you suffer

New Year:2010

first day of school was a drag.
i wasn't into school at all.

but Everything Change when the class vote for its
Class commity
Aaron-Chairman lol he always look so cute
Syahirah-Vice-Chairman
Kiko-Secretary
Melvin-Treasurer
Chin Yuen-Discipline

Damn it.. its been long i never take up a leadership role
excluding the Peer support program ofcourse
the last time i remembered was
Primary 6.
Loyang Primary School Prefect -.-
yes i sound like a dog.teacher's pet..
lol but ofcourse i am..i am a totally bitch la then..
exposing people's wrong doing to cover up mine =)
I cannot take leadership role la..zzz
I can lead but i'll get tired
as in when i'm a leader i will always try to be at my best..
and gosh its tiring..take notes,take attendance, plan things
but the bonus point is it help me encourage myself to
show good examples therefore..i try to focus on my studies..
Its weird !! i know
"Irah? study? actually focusing??!"
might probably whats going on in your mind..

lol People change what right??
its a new year anyway.=)

The Sluts,My whores

Awaludin,Ashraf,Syahirah,Firdaus,Hidhir

Ashraf,Syahirah,Awaludin

BBQ was fun,buts nothing compared to last year.
Din and ashraf was there as an extra.
they are my bitches.they are like our own family
Drama Family.
Firdaus made me Cry..You asshole.
you shouldn't say
"I'll miss you,next year"
its not like you meeting us again..
when you say that.
i picture myself walking to school alone..There is no one there waiting..
there no Firdaus,Deena,Hidayah nor Anson..well depends

My Close Friends mostly are the seniors who graduate.
Left with shida.and in class, A few cliques
Hidayu,Khalisa,Naim,Krisna,Haziq=.= and the boys
i really have no mood to go to school.
Damn it..

Poaching a Werewolf

Damn man this people.
Mirror check is My advised to those bitches who barks a lot.
shida is Grounded! damn bitch! went out with Nas like a slut.
come on..see what you get into.
Buat apa layan perempuan giler mcm dia?
but the GOOD NEWS is
She Gets Her Ass in Sec 5!! whoo hoo!!
taking O's with me baby!!

Anyway.Now days i find girls and boys have switch roles.
Not saying about gays n lesbians but
about how girls chase boys while boys sit one corner shake their leg.=.=
Obviously world is coming to an END.

Well to be succinct. I'm more To the male then a female.
therefore i find Clingy girls and Cry babies damn irritating.
when i say cry babies i did n't meant literally babies.
Girls should dominate their emotions!
Damn you Crazy bitches!

Speaking about bitches.Now days..even Puppys wanna bark.shheesh
barking up at the wrong tree you dumb Anjing.
But I do nothing. they bark at my friends.they bark at me,they bark at everyone and anyone.
Sad to say i don't understand a word. i would really kick them a side if they were dogs.
all i do is to wait till they find another tree to bark at. i mean seriously?
no point talking to a Low intellectual capacity person right Or even a Person with moral bankruptcy?
they don't get a thing in their head.
Let them Be Slow rather then Low IQ.

now days gays are becoming hotter..bitches are getting Cuter(uglier)
such a Sad story..hahaha

speaking of Sad.
Muhammad Amirun Irfan bin Rahmat,Nephew of
Siti Syahirah bte Buang was involve with an
Accident On Chrismas.

Lol and i enjoyed it. lol no la..but i laugh my ass off

I ain't even mad
you and Me been Over
which means
I'm over you baby

Jump then fall

Acting is not easy.Life is the stage.
I see many people with Many different crappy attitude.
i just wonder who is watching me to rate my crappiness.
Yeah i'm slow,i'm one naive bitch.
but hey? i'm living life i didn't want.So don't expect me to cherish my life.
Not saying that i'm not grateful to the creator but i just didn't ask for this.
well my family is fine.i'm closer to my siblings now than i was before,except for my brother ofcourse.
but now days after i do some shit they don't want me to do,his been talking to me more often but
i didn't give a shit with him.i mean now i'm older then you want to give your attention? ouh my ..fuck it.
i don't need your attention.i've been living myself since 5. I observed what you people did and now i juts want you guys to taste your own medicine.Mum suffered alot giving birth to you fuckers.since we all are fuckers i'll be the biggest Jack ass =D

Shida i have to say that you are just like me..stupid n naive plus lazy too
come on.. you know what i'm talking about.
you fall for an idiot,you obviously missed the date to register for sec5,living me.
you punctuality is an issue here..seriously..wake up or i'll leave you..
look around..you'll drown with Friends you got besides me.

and now i know how i feels like shida. to be in between two people.
love triangle.
and yeah it sucks.to protect the girl's feeling you always try to find a way to cover up.
But then ,instead of covering up you, i've open up another problem.
Well can't blame a slow , Slefish ,stupid girl like me huh?

you smile,i smile
you shine,i'll shine for you
Just jump,i'll catch you

Crap

Well not much things happen recently i went to melaka! for the first time..
i was not excited at first instead..i was grumpy..
i got beat up in the morning because siblings sold me out.



then a few days later got chalet. Qad's chalet..
went ther with,shida,ina(my niece) & sima.on diff days
Ina kept crying louder looking at Qad's face..it creeps me out.
but when i reach the entrance she settle down and smile..and even ran towards cheers..=.=
how can i not freak out?
then i went to ws today,met some drama peeps for BBQ pit.
then bought mum's stuff.. went home with shida..chill in my room at chat with random people..
that bitch! now herei am..those people are talking to me.zzzz

Te amo doesn't mean i love you

he put his hands around my waist.
i said I'm not gonna run way
but
let me go.

Well good morning to everyone.Mostly who reads this must be rotting at home
therefore enjoy the nutshell story :D

these few days /week or so has been very fruitful for me.
there's excitement,sorrow,confusion and revenge
Excitement-the bitch has a new puppy to play with well more of a werewolf actually
sorrow-typical problems,as in sluts & family problems
confusion-the bitch play with fire and charcoal lol wth am i saying?
well obviously everyone loves to play with fire but charcoals are the one getting burned..
i think that's the message I'm trying to convey.
Revenge-revenge is sweet don't you think?especially when you get to do it yourself.

boy you are gonna hurt yourself.i did warn you that its not two sided love story..therefore you'll never have happy ending perhaps not even an ending.things this through will you?

things i've learnt this week

1. Don't say things on impulse for revenge
   
2. Next time play with water
3. Laptop that lags is a Lagtop =.=
   

My soul's crying without asking why.

A Bet to Remember

Family & Friends

APHORISM

well people always say
that irah likes to many guys to count.
I've notice that but i just hate to admit it because it makes me sound like a slut.
but obviously..I'm pretty sure that aphorism goes to both girls and guys.
Because its a crush not love..unlike some people..who thinks love can be share equally..
well fuck it!
no one share love equally.
you are just a plain motherfucker i tell you.
how can you love yr girlfriend? love me? love yr mother all the same..
your love is in a different dept , you imbecile child.
saying i love you to your girlfriend is sweet
but
saying i love u more to your bitch is just awful
and
yet u love yr mother and give her a hard time.
you are such a berok!

anyway...Irah is demented today.
but i'm not upset or at least i think i am not..
hah 2 weeks i was crazy for a guy..
but obviously he is vapid of me.
lol even though i didn't even talk to him after adding him..zzz

but i met this Internet friend.he is very liberal which is good..
i needed a guys point of view.
i see a profound friendship with him.
he looks typical but he has way lot of characteristic which i admire.

and to top it off.. Muhammad Haziq bin wahab is an asshole.
you two-faced blood sucking fucker with a mouth of pepek ayam!

hello hello baby i can't hear a thing.
sorry baby i'm kinnda busy
Stop calling.

Let the music play till you are Deaf

okay technically this is my last resort where i am about to scream my heart out tonight okay today's post is nothing much but to say how heartbroken am i now..so you guys can skip it..
On the 6November2009,
Syahirah,Hidhir,Aaron,Hitesh,HuiXuan and Amirah went to these Campteen '09 where student from all around Singapore came together to learn about racial harmony better..it sound pathetic yes but it really open up my eye actually. so here's how it goes.. the first night we were pissed off because the first day was wasted on stupid games as our main purpose is to learn about racial harmony for our school. we talk and talk our way out and there came this particular guy. he has

fair skin, using specs ,has deep charming voice (manly voice),calm yet innocent face. well practically i only notice him only after he had our one on one moment negotiating.he gave me hope after telling me his life story..which is similar to mine..but now he is in this Private University doing great.he is 19 btw.

well we ended up staying till the end with me falling sick on the 2nd day.=.= that made me so pissed off and i feel like going home every second but i keep telling myself that i want to see him when the sun rises next day. And not a single day i miss to talk to him...aww until now thinking of him makes my heart beat twice as fast..breathing as hard without knowing.. There a few more girls who fall for him I'm sure...so yeah..so anyone in my position would know that they have better chance isn't it?

Ahmad Lutfi

when Aaron found Aprillia, and hidhir found Zahra

Goodbye Seniors

don't he look superly Duperly Freakinnng Hot!!??
i mean ..Personally i love the hairdo!
Plus i'm gonna miss it!! and the person as well!

To ALL O'lvl Student '09
good luck wish you all the best people.
For this whom I'm close with..
3 words
I hate you!
Leaving me alone in GVSS not enough torturing huh?
well by now you guys must have Graduate....so long and Farewell
It might be the last time but we never know.
Life is short,people come and go.Sure you guys find better Friends but
please oh please just don't forget me..
3 years o..is enough to be a part of me..
And 'm not letting you guys go that easily :@

Burger king

@ Friends Chalet

Burger king is a place where i will never forget.
A plce where i mostly shared it with Fie and Shida.
to tell you the truth i realised,i spent Too Much time on this two People.
I'm sorry to the others whom i may ditched without realising.
No hard feelings.

Anyway.. one of those days we were studying in Burger king
this Handsome guy came in .
He was using a Orange T-shirt,Jeans and he was squinting his eyes..
but honestly he was Hot!
He came in with his 2 other friends in white.
Medium length hair with a horrible squirrel face yet with good fashion and another standard looking one.

Getting excited. I signal to shida and said "handsome handsome!!! orange orange!!"
Out of nowhere she shouted calling for
"Hazim Hazim!!"

for a moment i was like What The Fuck??!
"You know that guy?"
But then i realized she look confused.
She mistook the word handsome for HAZIM..=.='
so fie Laugh hysterically,followed by me
And the Best part is..
Instead of the orange guy his friend"standard looking one" turned then seconds later
"GEMMOK!"
I caught that word which has been hunting me since i was 11.There was a momentary qualm.
" Did i heard he said Gemok?" fie break the silence
-"yes yes i did too!! was he referring to me?"
" no he was referring to shida! lol"
and he continue laughing his ass off..
Not only that happen..
A retarded middle age woman was pissed at shida for pinching Her own cheeks as she thought shida was mocking her black cheeks.
It was an awesome night!

Revenge of the fallen

Raffles institute or Retarded institute

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Weakness

what is exactly my weakness towards boys?
Tall?handsome? funny?caring?
well i must admit those 4 are my priorities when looking into guys.
but
when we are in different religion is the worst part.
after my first experience in a relationship,i tend to plan a long term relationship with the right guy.
waiting for the prefect man will leave me boneless perhaps i have to compromise my priorities in guys?

i hate it when i found the package,his religion spoils it.
well i don't mind that he is an Indian for a race,in fact i like Indians.
i was born to be one..lol

damn this boy get got me hard

Clean Slate

I've been a Slut all my life.Hanging out with mostly the opposite gender is what i do most.
i don't get along well with girls as our conversations are very boring.
Or in Rasyidah Rahman's case its very
PROBLEMATIC!
She is always late.
>not by 5 mins but alway 30-45 mins
She always have her way
> she is good in persuading.
She has the most screeching laugh ever
>high pitch laughter which is very scary to be out with her at night alone.
she is too NICE!
>Being Friends with people's opponent

i get pissed when she always arrived late.made us wait.have her way...
and yet.. i often asked myself
"why am i not angry at her when i was swearing and cursing her 1 minute ago?"
i am still wondering why?...

YES.i do keep a record of what my friends do to me and their mistakes.And i bet there are a bunch of you too who do it.Whats wrong keeping track of it?This are the little things which we look back and laugh for.

well i know Firdaus take note of people's doing. ahaha i certainly do..*winks*

You cannot explain Defeat but you need not explain Victory

Piety of a Spineless Bitch

Well ahahaha i'm so proud to be
A professional backstabber rather then a
professional Cock sucker or
a having a dick with an IQ of a Pea.
lol so much for "shida,since is Ramadhan,i have no more grudge against irah"
blah blah blah.. keep the shit in your mouth.
Lol i don't even care about your damn grudge against me or your fellow bitches think about me..
ahahaha well you got piss that Kunal actually see the real you?
awww too bad thats not my problem..
and neither am i jealous of Shida with you..
Infact i don't care she is with you..what i care is what you are doing to her.. you say she is your bestfreind..convince me that whatever you done has benefinited her.. stand up for your own you spineless bitch

• when you were spineless you try to get your bitches to get your back
• convince others that i'm such a backstabber of you
• Create nothing but an heart ache to shida

and as for you Low IQ dog. i understand why you hate me because of cameron..lol what ever you think.. i seriously didn't sold you out but before u told me not to say a word i already did.. besides that the rest he was trying to be smart guessing about your pathetic life.. well atleast when i speak out my mind i am being straight forward not like somepeople's converstaion which seems like a asylum chat room.
who else besides Fitri and her sri lankan boy i have been backtabbing or talk abt? you may speak up i am more than glad to explain why i bitch about your pathetic behaviour.